| happy crappiversary |
[26 Jun 2008|11:44am] |
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so today was our one year anniversary.
we started off the day with robbie being sick (again). then it was time to put another one of our kitties to sleep. afterwards robbie got chewed out at work. then we decided to cap off the night by not going out to our favorite restaurant. robbie was even asleep by 8:15.
at least the bar's been set low for next year's anniversary! it can only get better from here!
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| deal with it. |
[19 Jun 2008|11:28pm] |
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goodbye my precious twenties.
i am officially 30. it actually was a great day, minus the 100+ degree heat. i slept in, ate some banana cabana, drove down pch, and went to the koranda's for a party in my honor. and i have to say that i'm beginning to feel more comfortable there than at my side of the family's functions. it's great when it's just my mom and even ron, but throw in a step-ling, and it's an uncomfortable nightmare. poor diane had to forgo her birthday joyfulness to suffer through an awkward step-filled bbq. next year we'll make it up to ya!
so hopefully today will be a sign of what my thirties will be like - hot and easy! speaking of that, is it sad that i actually wanted to go to tigerheat tonight? see, some things will never change. hello to my hot and easy thirties!!
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| final score: 76% |
[13 Jun 2008|03:21pm] |
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I just passed an entire CPR course, along with the exam, in a total of 21 minutes.
No exaggeration whatsoever.
Online CPR certification. Remind me not to save your life.
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| quote of the day take two |
[25 Sep 2007|01:31am] |
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After mentioning to Robbie that I wanted to go to Popeyes for dinner, I was scolded with this:
"Just because you live in Chino, doesn't mean you have to be Chino."
Whatever. I still got my Popeyes.
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[27 Aug 2007|03:16pm] |
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Shoot for the moon.
If you miss, you'll still land among the stars.
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| get low |
[26 Aug 2007|09:37pm] |
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Went to Myrtle Beach today.
It's alright if you like saggy boobs.
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| the homestretch |
[23 Jul 2007|09:01pm] |
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Today was my first day back in the real world. It was nice in a weird way to be working again. The kids and parents and teachers all seemed thrilled to have me back, so I felt very MVP all day. It sounded like a lot of drama happened since I left in March, so it was nice to hear that I missed all of that craziness. The only problem is that I'm still really homesick. The days just drag by, and I don't know how I'm going to get through these next weeks. I feel like I made my peace with NC when I left a few months ago, so being back is just plain awkward. The good news is that I'll be home six weeks from today. FOR GOOD!!!
There's a part of me that feels a little guilty about going back to CA. I know that if it were up to Rob, we wouldn't be going back just yet. But I moved to NC for his career, so he's moving back to CA for my career. I mean don't get me wrong, he's stoked about going home, but he's much more open to living in other places than CA. Especially considering that the cost of living in CA is ridiculous expensive, and I recognize this even more since we've been here in NC. Like if we decided to stay (totally hypothetically speaking - don't worry!) we could buy a NICE house right now. But because we're going back to CA, we can't even afford an apartment and will have to live with the in-laws for awhile (god help me). But that's the price we pay for living in CA.
Rob brought up an interesting point the other night, and I don't really know what I think of it. He said that if we decided to settle down and raise a family in a place like NC, we would be financially stable to the point that I could CHOOSE to work if I wanted to. In CA though, we'll have no choice but to have both of us working full-time while raising a family. Is it worth it? Right now it is, but what happens when we have kids? Is it worth it to stay in CA and be close to family, but lead a more stressful life? Or would it be more stressful to try to raise a family being so far away from our own family? I really don't know what the right answer is.
All I know is that I want to go home to CA and I'll do whatever it takes at this point. I miss my family, I miss my friends, and I miss my freeways. Six more weeks to go!
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| it must be my designer AE glasses |
[19 Jul 2007|10:24pm] |
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I told JJ that I would write in here more often, so here we go.
The other day I was told that I look like I belong on Robertson Blvd. Ohhh the joy to hear such a phrase. Funny how I would never hear that directed to me in LA though. I suppose living in NC has its perks at times.
"You... think me... beautiful?" - Captain EO.
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| Part Two |
[17 Jul 2007|08:02pm] |
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June 26.
The big day.
I wake up feeling refreshed, pull open the curtains, and see...
...RAIN. It had been beautiful blue skies the whole time we were in Hawaii, and now it was RAINING on my wedding day! Not a good start. Luckily there was great news. Diane had talked to Rob and things looked good! He hadn't thrown up in 12 hours so he was ready to get some marriage on! THANK GOD. I actually went over to his place that morning (screw tradition) to talk wedding logistics and such. At that point, I was feeling good, and so was he, so bring on the rain – it wasn't going to ruin my day!
That afternoon actually ended up being pretty chaotic, especially for Diane, but everything worked out in the end. Except for my hair. And I'm still pissed about it to this day. Excuse my self-involved rant, but it was a nightmare. I look at the pictures now and I cringe because the front looks like I did it myself, and the back looks like a messy rat's nest. The whole reason why I spent $100 the day before and got my trial hair done was so that I could avoid what ended up happening. Everything looked perfect in my trial session and I had absolutely no anxieties about my hair for the wedding. Well apparently my hairstylist has Alzheimer's and can't remember a damn thing. I got to the salon on the day of the wedding and she was like, "Ok where are the pictures of what you wanted?" Huh? So I told her that I wanted it exactly how it had been the day before and even showed her the pictures that we took of my hair. She was like "Oh yeah! I remember now!" Weird, but I was still confident that she knew what she was doing. My back was turned to the mirror the whole time, so I couldn't see a thing. Well when she turned me around when I was done, my stomach sank. It was not at all like the day before. But at that point it was too late because I had to be dressed and ready to go for pictures soon. I wanted to cry.
I hate to be so self-centered and trivial, but c'mon, it's my wedding day!
Luckily we were all in store for some great news: no more rain!! It was still a little overcast but I can work with clouds! I've never loved the sun so much.
Back up at the suite was a lot of fun. We turned up the radio, put our dresses on, and got all girly about the wedding. It was awesome. My JJ and Chad stopped by to say hola and get the setup for the reception room. They looked so cute and Hawaiian! We didn't have much time to talk because I was late for my portraits in the lobby. Talk about awkward. It's hard being a model! You have to turn your head this way, but move your chin that way, and hold you flowers like this, but stand like that. I may need to rethink my aspirations of supermodelhood.
T-minus one hour. I was actually pretty calm and mellow. There was a slight wardrobe malfunction (who knew you could see panty lines through wedding dresses!) T-minus 15 minutes. We did our final walk down to the lobby. Still feeling totally relaxed. T-minus 5 minutes. It hits me. The nerves, the emotions, the tears. I remember very little after that. You would think that since it was one of the most important moments in my life, I would remember it all. Nope. I remember seeing my aunt in the audience, I remember putting a lei on my parents, I remember the pastor making a joke about Rob being sick - but other than that - nothing!
6:30 and time for our grand entrance! Some brat had stolen my custom-made white orchid lei, but it wasn't going to ruin my night. We did a great job of embarrassing our wedding party with the introductions, so now it was time for our awkward moment: the first dance. Ugh. I hated ever minute of it, lol. It's probably because it really was our VERY FIRST DANCE together ever, and to have everybody watch was just plain awkward. Luckily that was the worst part of the whole night. From there, it was nothing but laughter and good times.
We really tried hard to make it a FUN reception for EVERYONE, and I think we may have done it. The numbers game was hilarious, even though my team totally got slighted when it came to scoring. Next was the Best Best Man contest, which was the hit of the whole night! I can't remember laughing that hard in a long time. It was one of those classic life moments that I will never forget. Then it was the infamous cake cutting, which was... interesting, lol. I actually do feel really guilty with how I handled it! Can't wait for those pictures. As for the dancing, Get Low was the best! (Thanks Diane and Chad) I'll always think of my wedding now when I hear that song, lol. How magical. The last dance was actually ten thousand times better than the first dance. It was dark, the mood was right, and there were BUBBLES! Who can go wrong with bubbles?
All in all, I think everyone had a great time. We had so many people come up to us saying that it was the best wedding that they had ever been to. Diane even told me that she's pissed because there's no way she could ever have a wedding that could top ours. I love it! All of those hours and HOURS of hard work totally paid off. It was a dream wedding for me and Rob, and I'm bummed that it's all over, but blessed that it all came together so well. I'll never forget that day (only portions of it, lol).
One final word: We had an open bar (which some may have enjoyed more than others) yet Rob and I only had water the entire night! Talk about a couple of losers!
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| Part One |
[10 Jul 2007|11:00pm] |
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Today is our two week anniversary!
It sounds totally cliche, but I'm going through these hardcore post-wedding blues. Like any mention on tv of a wedding, or an engagement, or god forbid another bride, I get pissed! And I realize that what I'm saying is completely ridiculous, but it's true. I just wish I could go back to that day and relive it all over again, the good and the bad. It wasn't the perfect day (thanks to my hair and a lei stealer), but it was so close. I didn't think I would be so melodramatic like this after the wedding. My initial reaction was "thank god it's all over", but now that things have slowed down, it's all beginning to sink in. I somehow need to snap out of this funk! Plus being stuck in NC for eight weeks doesn't help things.
But anyway enough with the poor me's! I have nothing to complain about because I just got back from an amazing vacation! I'm going to try to capture some of my memories in here, with the hopes that it may just cheer me up. Sorry kids. It's gonna be long and detailed so strap yourselves in and hold on. This is for me anyway, so no complaining.
June 23: I suppose this is where it all starts. We woke up early and off to LAX we went. I tried smuggling in a water bottle through airport security but Diane caught me before I could even think of blowing anything up. (Although leave it to me to forget again in Honolulu, and this time I got caught by security! I am officially one of "those" people now.) So after a cold and uncomfortable flight on lovely ATA airlines, we land in beautiful Hawaii. Too bad Jessica is nowhere to be found! Oh well - we drown our misery in our cute new Jeep! Our luggage barely fit in the back, but that didn't stop us from making the long trek over to... Walmart? Yeah not the most glamorous first stop in Hawaii, but I needed some posterboard for the seating chart. It ended up being an awesome stop because we met the nicest guy at the Subway across the street! He even gave me free cookies because I was getting married, lol. I love Hawaiians. After that, it was off to Diamond Head! I was told that the hike was "easy" and that flip flops were "fine". Ok no. My poor flip flops, not to mention my poor body! It was totally worth it in the end because the view from up top is unimaginable. I could have stayed there for hours, but Turtle Bay was calling. After a brief stop at the shave ice bus (YUM), and with some help from two very kind strangers lol, we were on our way to the North Shore. Too bad we had no clue how to put the top back on the Jeep! You cannot even begin to comprehend how difficult a task this was! Plus keep in mind we were going on no sleep and aching muscles! So after only an hour of strenuous work (no exaggeration) our Jeep was like new again. Big props to Diane for figuring out the mysterious "clips".
June 24: This day was another early day, but for good reason. We had a date at 7:00 with Trina and Ryan, and some 13 foot tiger sharks! What an awesome experience! The dive itself wasn't actually that "scary" like I had been expecting. The only time I screamed was when a huge shark's tail hit our cage. Other than that, the sharks seemed very gentle and docile, not to mention beautiful. To be honest, I actually walked away with a new appreciation of sharks. Giant dolphins if you will! After that, Diane and I made our way back to Turtle Bay. I showed her the reception room and wedding pavilion. It was completely surreal being there again, and knowing that I would be getting hitched in just a couple of days. Diane's reaction to the place was awesome, and it rested my anxieties about whether we had picked the right location. We tried to do some snorkeling at the hotel, but the water was way too choppy. Instead we did what we know best: Diane ordered a drink, and I ordered a hamburger. YUM. That afternoon I ended up ditching Diane for my groom. (Although don't feel bad for Diane - she was doing just fine getting "the best massage ever" that afternoon.) Rob and I made the long drive down to some crazy lady's house to take care of the marriage application. We made the best out of the trip by stopping at the Dole Plantation for some Dole Whips on the way home. YUM. That night we got together with most of our friends at this restaurant right on the beach. I was honestly dreading having to entertain everyone together, but it actually ended up being so much fun! We had a great group of people who showed up, and I couldn't stop laughing the whole dinner. (BTW - did you know that Diane is ghetto?)
Now this is where it gets interesting.
June 25: The day before the wedding. I show up to meet our photographer and Rob in the hotel's lobby at 8:00 am sharp. Rob looks like crap and can't even sit through the whole meeting. I have no idea what's going on. He tells me that he threw up some pineapple (YUM) and that he's just really "jet lagged". So after I get my hair and makeup done, Rob and I are supposed to meet up with our catering coordinator, Shannon. He looks even worse this time, and confesses to me that he's been throwing up all morning! After only a few minutes with Shannon, Rob goes back to his room and Diane steps up as official groom for the day. Turns out it wasn't jet lag – it was actually the oh so lovely stomach flu. Perfect timing, right? Luckily I had Diane! I cannot even begin to describe how Diane saved my ass that day. She went with me to meet with the minister, she helped me put things together, she even came up with the FABULOUS idea of going to Matsumoto's for some shave ice. (AMAZING and totally worth the line!!) Diane supported me through everything that day, and the only way that I can ever repay her is by doing the same for her. Since Rob couldn't even hold water down at that point, the rehearsal dinner was canceled (and which meant no ribs for Chad!) My mom, Ron, Diane, and I all went out to dinner instead and actually had a great time. By the end of the night, I was a mess. Nobody had heard from Rob since 3:00 that afternoon, and I had no idea what was going to happen the next day.
What will happen to Erin & Rob??? Will the wedding go forth??? Stay tuned....
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| Diane vs. Erin |
[09 Mar 2007|11:11pm] |
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Diane: Rubbed elbows with Kirsten Dunst at the El Rey.
Erin: Bumped into Tina Yothers at the local JC Penney.
I can't make this shit up.
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| intellectualness. |
[05 Mar 2007|09:17pm] |
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i'm back.
i'm not sure where i went.
but i'm back.
maybe one of these days i will actually post something.
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| life. |
[28 Nov 2006|12:06am] |
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It's weird how things work out.
I had been working an office job since I came to NC. It paid the bills yet I hated almost every second of it. Well with Diane coming out for Thanksgiving, I was going to take a few days off, but my bitch of a manager completely screwed me over. I was like this job isn't worth it, so I put in my notice. Well because of that reason alone, I was terminated on the spot. Yeah it really doesn't make much sense to me either. Even though I didn't even like the job, I was hurt, and plus I was counting on all that money!!
Now cut to 2 weeks later.
Today was my first day as an official teacher! And this is what I've wanted to do all along! I think being let go from the office job made me go out there on my own, without relying on the temp agency, and find something that I really wanted. It's awesome going to bed without having that horrible pit in my stomach. I actually like what I'm doing! Imagine that.
Plus with all that time off (thanks to my former manager) I was able to have the best time with Diane at Thanksgiving. DC was awesome!! We did everything and walked everywhere in only a few days. (My poor shins.) Our DC trip completely rejuvenated my spirit, and I so desperately needed that. We even hit up the Waffle House on Thanksgiving morning. Yummm, grease.
So right now I'm happy, yet homesick. No worries though. I'll be home in less than a month!!
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| she works hard for the money. |
[26 Sep 2006|09:32pm] |
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Well I started my job yesterday. I'm an assistant case manager for an insurance fraud investigation corporation. It's my first "real" job, even though it's only for a few months. The job itself sucks but it pays the bills so I shouldn't complain much.
I've realized the importance of finding a career that you genuinely like. Spending 8 hours everyday doing this crap is mentally exhausting. If anything, I feel like this job is a learning experience of exactly what I don't want. Teaching is looking more and more appealing everyday. And what's up with this crazy schedule?? I have to wake up every morning at 5:00 and am in bed by 9:00. The real world sucks.
Plus, to complicate matters, I'm pretty homesick right now. I got an email from a friend back home and out of nowhere I just started crying. Then it happened again when I got a voicemail from my mom. It's hard when you're in bed at 9:00 to keep up with everyone back home, but I'm doing my best. Believe it or not, I'll be home in 17 days!!! It seriously can't come soon enough.
For now, I'm hanging in there and taking one day at a time. I could sure use some Togos right about now.
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| dear diary. |
[23 Sep 2006|12:39am] |
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i love how everyone is all livejournally now.
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| favorite quote. |
[22 Sep 2006|01:03am] |
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"Life is what happens to you while you're busy making other plans."
- John Lennon
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| rest in peace. |
[21 Sep 2006|03:03pm] |
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Well it's over.
No, I'm not coming back home just yet.
Six Feet Under. It's over. I've finished all five seasons. It sounds weird but it's been one of the only constant things in the past few months that I have been able to rely on. I've had so many shitty days here, and sometimes there was nothing better than curling up in front of the tv while getting consumed in the show's story.
(It's pretty pathetic that I'm writing as if I've lost my best friend, but you have to remember that I don't have any friends here, lol.)
I can't exactly talk about the series finale due to some who are watching the show (aka diane) and some who need to watch the show (aka jj), but I am happy with how it ended. Although nothing was as shocking to me as learning that Michael C. Hall really isn't gay and Rachel Griffiths is actually Australian! WHAT?!
Great show and I'll miss it.
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